SELF OBSESSION

SHIT

2009-03-14T12:38:00.001+08:00

exams results out monday nighttttt. its killing me.. fuck.

2009.

2009-01-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

Its 2009, wierd feeling trying to blog again after months of leaving this site to rot.

Anyway, new year, new stuff to play and new problems to face.

2008 wasnt really a good one. But its over anyway , we should all look forward and oh i'm expecting my next phase in life this year, NS and the 21st.

This year will be filled with 21st birthday parties and a severly widened hole in my pocket.

Its photography these days. i'm new with lots to learn.

Its the last semester of school after 4 dreaded years. lots of stupid decisions made during that period. but they led me to what i have today. and i'm kinda happy with it. =)

Post again soon i hope.

pig out

2008-09-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

i've lost touch with this bloody blog. almost forgot that it existed. anyway. attachments are over!! its like super slack these days. wake up late. do nothing. fun. but boring at times. buttt. genting and hongkong from next week onwards!! finally my passport has some use. back on the 20th of sept. till then.

stigma

2008-08-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

just take one day. sit down and realise all the stupid things you have done. you'll end up like me. a defect.

peace.

2008-07-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

its amazing how refreshing it can be when you make an effort to meetup those you havent seen for ages. all the talks and craps can be very very worth the time spent. i try to get pictures to put up. soon. i guess.

optimism isn't something you have to look for. it's something you must create.

take it away.

2008-06-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

enlightenment. thats what everyone seeks isnt it. as for me. i refuse to put stuff into my head.

i shall pursue what i want from now on.

stop being a freak.

yes. go for it. bravely.

movies anyone?

quickie.

2008-06-21T07:33:00.000+08:00

i'll be out soon. but since i have time. i'll do a quickie.

i hate football. they give me headaches. and heartache probably.

wierd. the way relationships works. some can just put it down easily. whereas some. still holds on that stupid string of hope. for years and years although it never really started at all. its probably tied down below or something. occasionally dropping the line down doesn't help at all. in fact it makes it worse. stupidity some might say.

its love. love always wins.

books. they help. read more.

Heat.

2008-06-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

yes. i'm such a jerk. i know.

tobecontinued..

for the time being. enjoy.

the race.

2008-05-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

i was in the line of hope today. the queue where everyone eagerly scribbles on pieces of paper to get a piece of hope. in exchange for cash. while in it. i thought. why am i here. joining everyone in this rat race where in the end the only thing people looks forward to in life is 3 days a week and 23 sets of numbers. the life that people seeks ahead are so routine. i'm feeling abit fucked up now. i have reports to complete and contemplating whether i should work 7 days a week. i'm tired. fatigue. but i have no money as well. thats why. the rat race. we'll always be working towards money. and waiting for the juices to be fed to us once a month. is money really everything? the way i'm leading my life. its abit stupid. i whine about every fuck i face. and more importantly every fuck i face is due to my own doing. face it. i'm fat ugly short stupid psyche and a major whiner.

and everything's being a fuck lately. i cant find my shaver and i do need to shave badly. facial hair. mind you. i lost the piece and guess what. erm. ya. ok.

books. they set me thinking.

yours.

2008-05-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

my teeth hurt. i can't even chew the nuggets i got.

And it didn't rain as i wanted it to.

empty

2008-05-23T18:58:00.001+08:00

FYP ends today. its Tai Seng Ave next week onwards for 3 months with a $440 allowance. yuck.
oh btw. i was supposed to graduate yesterday. shucks.

it's empty. i'm empty. nothing.

i shall refrain from blogging stupid stuff. as much as i want to. ya. optimism

dental later. i hope they tighten it hard. it'll probably give me something else to think about.

the final lap.

2008-05-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

presentation's this thursday. and it'll all be over after that. attachment starts next week. no rest. i havent been working for quite long also. need the money. shucks.

i need comments on how to improve this. please give me honest ones.

surprisingly Saosin's Seven years tops my itunes list as the most played song in my Ipod with 107 playbacks. wtf. Lemar's what about love gets 2nd with 67 plays. dumb yo. bored to tears doing the slides. kinda side tracked a little.

to be continued.

2008-05-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

alot has changed this week. i finally got my fyp back on track. but time constraints. 2 weeks left. oh well. God bless. i'll have to thank the support given by my FYP labmates as well. they helped me alot. =)

there are alot of stuffs i want to say. but i'm just too lazy. will continue filling this part up next time. till then.

birthdays are the best.

2008-04-23T08:49:00.000+08:00

Birthdays are always the best. it kinda tell you that friends are always there. nice. this post is probably way overdue. but i thought that i'll be doing injustice to everyone if i didn't post these up.

It was with the electronics people first the night before. i forget to take pics that day. shit. anyway. its always nice to have them around crappy. and fucked up as well. haha.

After that it was the usual cunt mates. i got a nice present from them. CDG. thanks people.

billy bombers. i intentionally left the shot with the ballon out. it looks gay.

Then it was with the nurse bitches the day after. they baked me a cake. thats like so nice la.

the popeye's butter milk biscuit cake. it tastes nice. and wierd maybe. haha.

THANKS EVERYONE. for the wishes and all. you people makes me feel like the the most blessed kid in the block.

well. alot has happened recently making me really busy and fucked and amused probably:

presentation was fucked up. got fucked for doing something that was meaningless.

got called up from physical training twice weekly

found out that redbull and coffee mixture brings you up to mount erecto for 2 hours at least.

floorball tournie was last night. LOST it and left with a sprained ankle. FUCK.

bathfoam erotica helps no matter how fucked up life may be.

on the verge of losing my job

new haircut soon.

thats it.

APRIL.

2008-04-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

ITS APRIL. the 20th birthday is this weekend. shucks. i'm broke too.
anyway. FYP is being a bitch. the ideas aren't flowing and i threw away lots of sketches already. they wouldn't work. screw em.
there isn't much anticipation for the 20th umbilical cord cutting anniversary day. nothing special. its the same every year anyway.
and i havent met alot of you guys for a long time. i'll try. once FYP stops being sucha bitch.
i do have some pictures which are way overdue. will post when there's time.
i'm trying very hard to sound monotonous here but it dont seem to be working.
presentations next week. i'm supposed to have like 10 ideas. i still have none. good luck.
i have the habit of typing chinese online now. seems fun. although i suck at it ALOT.
你他妈的老娘吃白
在间。

你好

2008-03-28T13:18:00.000+08:00

大家好。。。
我现在很闷。学校没有事做。

NO TONGUES.

2008-03-18T10:18:00.002+08:00

Having foreign objects stuck on your teeth is horrible. yes i have braces on. its terrible. i have ulcers popping up everywhere. i cant eat. i've been swallowing liquid stuff for days already. There are cuts on my tongue as well, the slimy member (sic) tends to get curious and touches the braces thus cutting itself. FUCK. i talk funny too. but surprisingly the profanities still comes out well. sweet.

there were several questions that i was curious about when i first had it on. did a search and found some answers. Here's one.

Can I still kiss with braces?
It matters what kind of braces you get. With old fashioned clunky braces, it is sometimes uncomfortable to kiss. Most orthodontic manufacturers now make smaller braces which make kissing comfortable

this is really stupid. i found this on some FAQ section of the website. dumbfuck.
http://www.bracesinfo.com/adult3.htm
the website can be found here. fucking stupid really. some of the questions asked.

RESULTS will be out tonight. i'm a total wreck now. fuck. i'm scared. If one module fails means i'll be out of FYP. thats not a good thing for your info. although i totally hate it alot. it'll only mean 5 years in poly. thats not funny either.

The Story Ends.

2008-03-12T19:41:00.000+08:00

i got my fyp project deliverables already. i got product design. WOW. thing is. it has to work if not i'll be repeating the whole sem. i can't draw for nuts. fuck it.

bra's on this friday. it'll probably change things alot.

i need ideas for fyp. this goes on i'll have no hair left.

no food for days to come. BYE

Incubus.

2008-03-08T13:54:00.001+08:00

was at the incubus gig with ms chow last night. it was worth the ticket price whole. they were really good. Saosin was good as well.

didnt manage to take pics though. all the moshing thats going on.

heres 2.

thats brandon on stage. its damn blur. didnt manage to get a focus. i bet CHOWPEIHUAN was drooling like mad over there. and you still owe me my report card babe.

the shot after i managed to squeeze my way out to get water. i couldn't get back in after that. kept getting pushed out.

btw, FYP starts already. everything sucks. and its crappy. FUCK FYP.

EXAMS

2008-02-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

I WILL START STUDYING TOMORROW.

I MUST.

OR ELSE I'M DEAD.

GREAT. THIS SERVES AS A REMINDER.

mandrin oranges.

2008-02-01T09:34:00.000+08:00

Chinese near year's on next week. and fuck. i haven't got my clothes yet. apart from the tonnes of rubbish which i bought. anyway CNY comes damn fast. it just seems like i celebrated new year yesterday. no time to prepare. i haven't even cleaned my room yet and my bed looks like some dinosaur's love nest or something. with papers and loads of crap on it. oh . i found my DNC labsheet under my pillow. WOW.

test is on at 4.30pm later. and i'm as fucked as ever. i need an A for this paper. its probably the only module i'll ever get an A. back to the books now.

bye people. and i may be fucking around your houses for CNY. prepare those ang pows and make sure there's alot of money inside.

oh ya. exams comes after CNY and FYP starts straight after that. so there no holidays this sem except 6 months of hell. thats why the ang pows have to be bigger :)

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2008-01-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

CALIFORNICATION

apart from all the sex.

its worth the afternoons.

leaving it blank.

2008-01-12T18:07:00.000+08:00

i should have worked this weekend. now i've got nothing to do except sleep for 2 whole days. shit.

common tests results was crap.
so was presentations and reports.
i hate school.

ISSUES:

2007-12-28T13:56:00.000+08:00

life's wierd during the holiday season. crazy parties and stupid senseless spending have no mercy on my wallet. anyway. presentations starts next week. guess what. i havent even started yet and i lost the materials needed. i'm fucked. and coming home at 5 am in the morning every day isn't helping.

i have serious money spending issues. work kinda fuelled that habit. i see something. i cant leave the shop without buying it. even if i do so. i'll end up in another shop buying something similar. FUCK. get me a doctor please.

crazy senseless nonsensical roadtrips to mythical places in singapore is draining my sleep away.

but everything's quite fun. with crazy senseless nonsensical friends who are always free (when a vehicle is involved) .

Happy holidays and have a nice new year everyone!!

holidays.

2007-12-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS. its coming in 2 day time? anyway. nothing special. same thing every year. but the holidays. broke like hell after all the spending. i have no money to eat now. and i lost $125 just like that. due to some stupid auntie on a bicycle.

2008 is in a week time.

i only have one resolution.

TO STUDY.

ok dumb. bye.

slit.

2007-12-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

common tests are stupid.
waste time.
i'm so dead.

stupid

2007-11-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

i swore i made an effort to get out of bed to go for morning classes today.

guess what?

THERE ISN'T ANY LESSON IN THE MORNING TODAY. ITS E-LEARNING. FUCK!!

i rushed all the way to school. only to find out that there isn't any lesson stupid.

fuckfuckfuck.

fuck fucking fucked.

2007-11-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

fucken school. week 6, its hell week. with 2 labtest, 3 class test, 2 report submissions AND a microprocessor board thing that has caused me alot of pain. today was the 1st day of hell week. and i had a labtest and and maths test. guess what. the labtest was open book. BUT i found out in the morning that i didnt fill in the blanks for the notes all. which means open book is useless to me. i've been fucking around during lab lessons for the pass 5 weeks and i didnt fill in the blanks. oh well. and maths test. its 3 questions. and i had to write " i dont know how to do" again at the bottom of the paper. fuck. work during weekends kills time for studies. last friday was drinks at kandi, but it kinda feels empty, like the fuck wasn't there. after this week. the load will lighten a little. but common tests is on week 8. that means hell again stupid fucked school. erghs. which reminds me. after weeks of working and reports stuffs. i havent caught a movie since 3 or 4 months ago. i'll have to find time for that also. its back to my reports now. tomorrow's final submission.

friday's a pain in the ass.

2007-11-08T17:35:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's a self declared holiday. that means i dont have school since wednesday till this weekend!! great. DEBARMENT'S on its way. i've had self declared holiday for the past 2 fridays already. AND its work on saturday and sunday. the lure of money. its taking my time up. but. no work no money. i'll be sleeping for the most of tomorrow. but if anything's up just ring me. especially if its under the sun. i need it. back to the reports. i finished the last of it this morning. like finally. i'll be on hiatus for the rest of the sem. crap. i still have submissions on week 6. stupid.

work work work

2007-11-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

life's been a bitch lately. its reports submissions to rush for and loads of crap assignments. amazingly i even bothered to do. anyway. school suck big time. i've been staying home every night to do my work and lights out has been pushed way back. imagine me staying at home most of the time. what a joke. i need to hand in a business feasibilty report next. anyone has a sample for me to refer to?

I'm an addict.

2007-10-24T21:02:00.000+08:00

i was damn dumb today. i accepted the invitation to my friend's house. and it totalled the amount to AHUNDREDANDFIFTY. i regretted it. FUCK.

binge

2007-10-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

i seriously dont know what to blog. but school started anyway. wasn't as fun as i imagined it to be. i got myself a new bag. my regular habit. damn stupid. maybe i'm psyche. the heat this days are so making me pissed. and it rains suddenly most of the time. damn weird.

i was secretly binge-ing on some biscuits when i got caught. stupid. haha. that explains my weight as well. and my mum asked me to go for a health checkup. so cool.

alright. i'll go dick my nose now. bye.

just like a kid.

2007-10-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

alohaa. i haven't been blogging for like a month? alot events had happened. mostly happy ones. =)

firstly.. i PASSED all my EXAMS!! i was expecting to fail though. but thank God.

following that. its a whole lot of birthdays. su qian's, sijia's, junwen's and jing's. and and the small gathering we all had. so cool la. lets go through some of these events. with pictures!!! like finally.

you can also imagine the amount of money spent. su qian's birthday was a vilage. sijia's at swissohotel merchant court's Ellenborough Market Cafe. junwen's and jing's at Serangoon Gardens chomps and Ice3. there were also alot of random sudden impulse expensive meals. and car rental. i don't know why i'm such a enthusiast. i get into crap situations all the time. like scratching the car. getting a heavy summon. money money. and fat as well. i can feel and see the creases on my chins now.

on the other hand. i just started working. they gave me 6 sets of phones that really work as samples to show customer. that means i can change a phone a day for the whole week. but if one spoils or lost. i can kiss my paycheck goodbye.

alright. i'm typing alot of crap here with no pictures because i'm waiting for the pictures to finish loading onto photoucket. oh ya. school starts next week. it'll probably be a good thing. tired of slacking so much already. books and stuffs here i come!! ok lame.
anyway. the pictures are ready!! alot of random dumb shots with no link to the post. but who cares. haha.

this is the reason why i need to get my cholestrol level checked. its ba kut teh from balastier. nice. but really really fattening.

ok. with this picture you will know i keep moaning about gaining weight. notice my face. so fat right. omg. but donuts. they are EVIL!! addictive and its not good when you don't have to wait very long to get to the front of the queue. its makes you want to buy it everytime you pass by the shop. damnit.

as usual. the drinks. thats the night i got cheated of $10 just for a sip of vodka. DON'T trust bargirls with short skirts!! maybe trust them for the night. but forget it in the morning. ok crap.

this is probably the 'hao lian' part. haha. the tag says it all. ok. everyone has it. i know. but my 1st pair what.

ok the merchant court night. this was taken at The Central. i won the grand prize in some lucky draw. it was kohsijia's birthday. so we decided to give to her as a present. haha.

this fucker is stealing a smoke. he's stressed. he says he just had sex with the birthday girl the previous night and he don't know got kana the 1st prize anot.

ok these two are probably the greatest pigs i ever met. nice friends and i'm always barging in on their dates. muahaha. ok thats crap. anyway. they've always been there for me. listening to my crap and destroying my life. especially the fat one who added me into the conver. oh well. okok. i hope all the best things happen to them and please use protection. haha.

this is the reason why everyone flocks to Ellenborough. the DURIAN PENGAT!! if you ever lament about the price you have to pay eating at Ellenborough just grab a bowl. fill it up with some of these and stuff it into your mouth. the guilt will be over like immediately. they paid me to say this. i didn't bring cash when i went there. this is in exchange for washing the dishes.

oh ya this. the true blue emo and the frog wannabe. omg look at her spectacles man. haha.

this is seriously very random. notice how much my hands have swelled from all the eating. tsk tsk.

to finish it off. i don't know why. i but i need one of these everyday. 'teh-o' probably to calm my nerves. actually i heard it helps to lose weight. thats why.

alright. these are all the pictures i found worth putting up here. there are still lots of birthdays to attend. and that means more money spent!!

no pictures...

2007-09-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

its the 14th of september already. and guess what since the last post i haven't even snapped a shot. i was browsing though the photos last night there wasn't even a new one. not even a crap shot. ok. the past 3 days was training at motorola. the job seems fun. and the people. they are so so cool. nice. not to mention lots of eye candy as well.

oh ya. one more thing. i guess i need to change my life. its so. dead? but i don't seem to be putting in any effort. money's flowing away as well. i hope work starts soon.

its like 3 months and 2 weeks since i last saw you?

the aces.

2007-09-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

tsk tsk tsk tsk. exams are over. half of the papers went down the drain though. oh well. anyway. life's been 21 points recently. you know you know. its the hols now. i have nothing to do except wait for money to fall from the sky. went for the motorola interview after my exams on thursday. guess what? i was late for it. then during the interview, the interviewer popped a question which kinda shocked me. she asked " are you always this late?" i nearly died. anyway. im not sure if i got the job. but training's on the week after next.

and and i haven't been photoblogging for so long. if you have noticed all my recent past few posts have no pictures at all. i went to check my phone there isnt any new ones. but i'll take some today and the next few days maybe to put it on here. i kinda ballooned so i'm camera shy now. haha.

eh.

2007-08-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

sad isn't it. i went into the exam hall and opened the paper and i knew that i would have to repeat the module. fuck. blame it on myself.

km/h

2007-08-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

Oh shit. its been ages since i last blogged. so many events had past though and i forgot to blog. ange birthday to fiona's birthday and lots of other stuffs had loads of fun eating and crapping at those outings. dont have time to put pics now ya. haha. ok. i rented a car for a few days this week. and guess what?. i scratched the freaking thing. ok. the feeling was great though. having the mentality that when i want to go out i will just have to go downstairs to the carpark and press the remote at anytime of the day. so cool. haha. but burnt a major hole in my pocket. or rather this time it burnt the whole pants away. alright. the fuel parkings and all the craps. and yea. the outing with pam, lit and dee was nice. i'm sorry i didnt have much time to bring everyone out when i rented the car ya. was busy ferrying my family around. it was fun anyway. the feeling's great when you drive alone in the car. its like nice. but i'll get bored of it soon and broke of course.

oh ya. i hope you'll continue your driving lessons ya. dont give up!! you'll pass the next time. cant wait to taste your driving. =)

hey there.

2007-07-23T10:05:00.000+08:00

to me..

life's about i love you, but you love someone else and we can only be friends

everything suck. really.

Ronald's surprise: The Assumption.

2007-07-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

Front Page

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Back Page

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lol i bet the both of them will kill me now. haha

my series of unfortunate events.

2007-07-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

this week. oh gawd. its started out well. with me graduating from driving school and all. ( sorry i tricked so many people. haha)

but towards the end. like today friday the 13th. so so so many unfortunate stuff had happen. firstly i lost my handphone. it was stolen. IN CLASS!! damn it. i had to get a replacement sim card on the same day. i cant live without my phone u see. that means i lost a whole lot of contacts. as i was getting the replacement card. i felt that i needed tuh shit. guess what? all the toilets were full. in the gents. full can u imagine. the gents being full. oh well.after that i went home and got ready for my movie with some crap replacement phone.and well. i was late for the movie. you know why? there was a freaking long queue for the drinks. i missed the 1st part of the show. all this happened on friday the 13th. like wtf.

everything's shitty nowadays. having a license makes no difference. urghs.

i bet the retard princess and slave will kill me for this. =)

2007-07-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

there's something i want to blog about for so long. but everytime i log into here. i just wanna emo. since i dont feel like emoing today. i shall blog about it. its about a friend of mine. the slut princess kohsijia. she a super weird person. you'll never believe what she does. she wouldn't do house chores much less wash plates or sweep the floor. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT SHE DOES? she goes to 4D outlets and clear up the mess that people made. like those used 4D papers that people scribbled on, or if the pencils are thrown around. SHE'LL FREAKING CLEAR THE MESS AND STACK THE PAPERS BACK PROPERLY AND ARRANGE THE PENCILS. like wtf. i bet non of you ever had a friend as weird as that. cool. now i can tell the world i have a friend who is THAT wierd and dreams that she is a princess. plus. she has a fat boyfriend. sweet.

be prepared to get bored.

2007-07-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

days like these are so so so BORING. homestays with nothing to do but online gaming, choosing t-shirts and waiting for them to be shipped across. my grandparents say i'm addicted to my computer.
i realised that these days , i stay at home for the whole day and go out only at night. or i come straight home from school and go out at night. then sleep and wake up in the morning to face school. life's wonderful like that isnt it.

AND i'm seriously in need of new clothings. i enter countless shops just to come out empty handed. i need opinions you see. i can never ever make my own decisions on matters such as clothes. opinions opinions. i have severe cash shortage as well. starhub's bugging me for payment, maybe thats why they refused to let any sms in last night. fuck.

and ya. the gorging problem. i had a slice of "Aunt Amy's Chocolate Fudge Cake" at cartel just now. you wouldnt believe how thick the chocolate was. there was a pang of guilt the moment i put a piece of that into my mouth. sijia still owes me my shipment of american sweets btw. i wonder how much guilt i would feel when i put those pieces into my mouth.

TP's up in a week's time. that means driving practice for the next few days. in the evenings. that burned a huge hole in my pocket. the lessons are like $80 for peak hours now.

oh. this portion of the post is probably the most important. i really need to thank everyone who has helped to keep me occupied the past few weeks. it really helped. =)

Sentosa will be more frequent now. i'm sure.

i stand no where in it.

2007-07-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

life still goes on isnt it. it doesnt make a difference. urgh.

days are crazy. i think i'm failing my papers. plus. i've been gorging myself like mad. for God knows why. oh well.

i hope you know.

2007-06-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

tsk tsk tsk. i'm failing my papers. isnt that cool. and come to think of it. i havent seen her since the night before vesak day. thats cool too. that's the same as being a monk for the past few weeks. sweet isnt it. no eye candy =(.

souls.

2007-06-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

oh hello. i've added this music playlist thingy on the right side of the blog. if you have noticed. i learnt that from pam btw. anyway. it kinda loads the songs which i chose in the playlist and randomly play one out when u visit my blog. but you can also click on anyone of the songs i chosen. i may take quite some time to load. but be patient k. you people can also listen to all the songs if you want.

i find myself really lucky btw. i have friends whereaver i want them to be and when i want them. like some kind of g*yl*ng chicken service. anyway. be it, coffee, carlsberg or chicken. i'll always find people to be there. so cool. i love them all. that sounds gay. ok.

i had stomach flu last week. it kinda suck. the pain its like unbearable man. i thought i was going to die. oh well.

friends friends friends. just friends. =)

The hangovers

2007-06-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

the headaches and blurred visions of the previous nights happening.. its so often nowadays. wake up in the morning trying to remember what happened the night before. the hangovers.

isnt it just amazing. every morning i wake up with the freaking HANGOVER. i'll tell myself that will be the last time i'll ever get to feel that way. but when the sun goes down. and i step in those dimly litted places. i'll tell myself. tonight its the night i'll forget everything.

but surprisingly when you think it helps washing away those feelings with cups and cups of potent fluid. you wake up in the middle of the night with a throbbing headache and everything just flashes across your mind. its like what you wish to not feel again. comes all at once. so much for the alcohol that i thought would help.

the hole.

2007-06-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

i need a drink. anyone wants to accompany me?

tummy tummy.

2007-06-09T13:06:00.000+08:00

helloo. seriously i'm gaining weight like fuck shit.
here's the reason..

oh yer. pictures. i only managed to upload some.

hed kandi's~ kandi bar.

i swear this people are freaking cool.
i was a little emo plus tipsy that night. so yeap.

Actors bar~ clarke quay

the ones who were always there. =)
i just gotta know Lit that day. she's nice.

its the common tests soon. that means the stress is here again. i have to sort out my stuffs soon. its affecting my life.

i'll blog pictures of the assholes who spent countless hours listening to my emos, the bastards who tried to kill my thumbdrive and the mongrels who messed up my house on my next post ok?. fatboy and and his fat girlfriend. the girl who made nice barley and her boyfriend. and and the vegetarian and the 9th floor guy.

agony.

2007-06-03T02:06:00.000+08:00

i'll never forget that day.

the day i got my answer to the question i waited so long for the reply.

nights out drinking and all the craziness has caused a hole in my pocket. i try to get the pics up as soon as i get it from pam.

thanks everyone who had been there for me when i entered my darkest moments.

useless me

2007-05-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

all this nonsense. its drivng me nuts. computer games and bikes aren't for me. i'll go crazy if i continue forcing myself like that.

one. T. settled.

blabber

2007-05-27T14:44:00.000+08:00

"so many years still after the same girl ar"

"i can see the tension between you two"

"seriously you should learn to let go"

"why you dont practise what you preach?"

"you think she dont have other suitors?"

"lose contact with her for awhile"

"you dont need a bike to go after the girl"

"why why why"

"it's you learning la dude"

"you lousy poke poke"

"aiya dont know u.. tell u one day the other day u go do opposite. then u come and emo again."

"wah lao. stop emoing can"

these are abstracts of my conversations last week. from my msn history or face to face conversations. most of them have no link. so dont go around guessing ok. haha.

life?

2007-05-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

Ron and Sijia caused me to never get to talk to her again today. actually it was much worse. i didnt even get to see her. they kinda killed me. oh well.

i need a change in my life. this are some of the crazy things i did.

-try to get addicted to online games. the new one and ya. go for DOTA all the time.
-and and and. the bike license. i think it'll probably spice things up a little. Everyone has it and their life is like so cool la. mine's so boring. so money 1st then the application. maybe enrol for RTT first.
-i got my lighter. the purpose for it?.. i'll think about that in future.
-i quitted drinking btw.

there was mix reactions from my peers about the bike issue. but almost everyone asked me to pass the motorcar one 1st then talk about it. some reacted strongly as in really strongly against it. especially. when i said i was thinking in the context of chicks.

keeping myself super occupied probably has helped me abit. that way probably it'll clear that image away. having your life revolving around the same issue for 3 years isnt a good thing =)

i really dont know if you know how much importance you have in my life (maybe that isnt very important to you). its like i cant read you at all. somehow i know you'll be reading this.

replies~ i dont get those nowadays aye

'just friends'

2007-05-20T16:55:00.000+08:00

i sat there thinking last night. i just couldnt sleep.

'just friends' but why do i feel so much as in care alot. too much maybe. the aches. it shouldn't be there. a friend. just a friend. but why. why. why.

sometimes i tried moving away because i think its abit too much as in the things i do or rather i feel too much. but the aches. it hurts more and more as i go further and further.

what is this? love or obsession? just friends. i know it has to remain that way for me to even talk to you.

just a random picture

stupidity.

2007-05-15T12:49:00.000+08:00

i have decided to reopen this god damn thing. its so boring without it man. its like i totally lost a portal of communication. my life's in a mess. someone clear it up for me?

i need a doctor.

2007-05-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

i've been damn emo recently. its like every little thing affects me alot. school isnt a nice place anymore. actually it has never been.

i realise that i cant be left alone. my mind goes crazy and i cant stand the boredom. i went to the library today and after all the running abouts and sweating like mad. i felt really giddy and puky. so i decided to stay in school while the rest of my classmates go dota (which is kind of boring to me these days.) this means that i will have to spend 4 hours by my own. and i started thinking of the wierdest things. and what i did next was probably the funniest and stupidest in my life. i went out of the library and out of the school. got a cab and got to kitchener road for curry rice. i was joined by sijia and ronlek. after some minutes of rush eating i realised that i was going to be late for class. so they followed me back in a cab. to my school.

i really appreciate all my friends that has been there for me. but i know that everyone has their own things to do and they cant always be there for me. maybe its time for me to be more independent.

if you happen to be reading this. i just want to say that i feel as though i'm forcing myself into your life. maybe its time for me to back off for awhile. to be honest. i'm falling for you like mad. i know i cant. i know that if i do. i will lose you even as a friend. thats what i'm most afraid of every single day of my life. i kept this in me for so long. i'm sorry that you have to read this.

she's the one.

2007-04-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

i finally understood how vulnerable i was. i may have alot of friends. but there's no a special someone which i can turn to. its like you can have the whole world to comfort and cheer you up when you are down. but you are hoping for a particular person to be there. but she isnt. unfortunately.

indeed. there's a void in me. somehow i cant seem to fill it. a thousand dates and none of it you were there. even if you were, i always screw it up anyway. i cant help having this depressed feeling. its not confusion. its really the no where to go feeling.

i lied. i love you. sorry. i know i cant. but i do.

L stands for Loser.

2007-04-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

i'm always the option. probably the least likable option of all. never a priority. not in anyone's lives. never was and never will be.

my birthday: the celebrations. =)

2007-04-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

hoho. i've been wanting to blog for a long long time. but i decided to accumilate all the events then blog out all at once. so this post will be a little bit more lengthy. as the title states. the past week was my birthday week. i'm like 19 now know. okok. this year its more like the virgin birthday. because it kinda struck me a few weeks ago. its like the last years of the 10s and ITS STILL WITH ME. nabei. okok. i will classify the rest of this post into different days. mainly the days my friends celebrated with me. and my class bbq.

here goes...

7 April 2007 Saturday

the things that happen on this day is probably the funniest. i was supposed to meet the bunch of arseholes in the evening for dinner namely ronlek , sijia, yanting and alvin. i called all of them and each one gave me a different place that we were supposedly going to dine. i found it funy. but. oh well. since most of them gave places in town. i wore my nicest clothings, with my shoes and perfumed. fortunately that day alvin managed to get a car. so the whole day i was left at home damn freaking frustrated because no one wanted to tell me where we were goin and even the time to meet. finally towards the late evening alvin called. and so i got down. i saw this grin. on his face. and also on those of sijia and yanting when he went to fetch them. i kept scolding them on the trip. =) when we are nearing the destination they finally told me that i overdressed. and the place was pasir ris. it was......... A SURPRISE BBQ. the 1st thing that came into my mind was ' i'm dressed so handsome today and now THIS??!!'. haha. fortunately alvin has to go back to get some stuff and fetch asley so i told him to get my clothes from my grandmother.

thanks people. i found it really nice. although there was the sucky present which was stupid. i was expecting you know you know. =)

thats the pit number.

a couple of these and the day will go well. =)

and ya. this 2. theres something interesting about them. as what they did. find out awhile later in my post of the house party.

go ahead and laugh. i have a corn on my foot. it hurt.

some random shot. the food was nice btw.

thanks for everything guys =)

11th April 2007 Wednesday.

this is probably one day i would not forget. i'll split the events of this day into 2 parts. part 1 and 2. lets start.

part 1...

after a million years. i finally gotta meet up with my nursing mates. the fools whom i spent 1 whole year in school with. i was late as usual. it was dinner at cartel. there was the usual crapping and stuffs, which i kinda missed. there was dee, pam , ange, jas and fiona. ram couldnt make it. they got me a brithday present. it was kinda cute. you can see it later at the presents section. after dinner we decided to get some cakes for dessert. the cake shop which ange recommended was dull and there was a waiting list so we decided to go bakerzin for dessert.

hey girls. i really appreciate that you all can find time to come out. one the eve of my birthday. haha. thanks.

the cakes!!

i freaking forgot to snap more photos this is the only one i took there. the rest was of the cakes haha.

part 2...

there was a part 2 to that night. interesting right. this was probably the most stupidest, funniest part of my life. haha. so after i left. i went to meet teresa and her friend vanessa at the esplanade. i think the both of them kinda looked alike. lol. then we search for a bus to get to MOS from there. they had alot of shopping bags with them. when we arrived at the doorsteps. i met dee and her gf joanne and shuan and one other guy. the 1st thing she said when she saw me was ' dont run away ar. tonight i going to pay for all your drinks so you better drink' . and sure enough. i couldnt run away. haha. within an hour of entering the club. i drank enough to make me black out man. dee forced me into drinking so much. evil haha. after that i couldnt remember much what happened the whole night. i remembered tess asking me if i want run away. to avoid drinking haha. i still have blurred visions of dancing around in the dancefloor. after that... the worse that can ever happen. i started puking. like there was no tomorrow. i puked like more then 5 times? seriously i think i messed up the club that night.i stayed there lying on the table for more than an hour? oh yar. dee told me i puked on her gf. i was like omg man.. sorry. haha. ok after awhile they had to drag me out of the club. i really really couldnt remember much except that teresa and vanessa had to send me home. so paiseh.

to dee , her gf and friends. sorry for all the trouble i caused and thanks for the drinks and everything.

to teresa. i'm sorry i spoilt the night yar. i really have to thank you alot for taking care of me that night. and thank you 2 for sending me home haha.

this is probably the only shot i took man after that i couldnt remember.

12th April 2007. Thursday.

its my birthday!!! haha. i woke up with a serious hangover. but i managed to get my house ready for the party. my secondary school mates and poly mates came over. sorry guys if i had trouble entertaining everyone that night. haha. i think this day. it can only be said with pictures. oh ya. one more thing. the 2 girls. they hid in the room to watch p*rn.

my grandmother prepared the food. there was too much . quite nice.

thats jing's chick and the helicopter.

19!! 19!!

thats the only photo i got of the people that night. the arse. my nicest clique. =)

The presents.

this was given to me by my greatest friend. i really really love it alot. just what i wanted. =)

my nursing mates gave me these. i like the boxers. so cute la.

the arses. i will not run out of teeshirts now.. i like the design.=))

volcom card holder from su qian , ulric and asley. they saw me looking at it that day. and they got it for me. so nice la.

and this and this. the helicopter that flies. so cool. from my engine poly mates.

there were also alot of ang baos from my mum , dad ,grandparents and junwen and daniel. thanks everyone for the gifts. i really like them. i appreciate everyone's presence that night. i hope you all had fun.

13th april 2007 Friday.

friday the 13th. okok. it the class bbq day. i went to meet jing 1st. she was invited =)) then we headed down to east coast. the food was great. this is another post where i can only describe it with pictures.

everyone who was there. vin went off 1st. with his 2 girls. so fortunate sial he. haha.

while waiting for the bowling lanes. i lost as usual. it always happens. =(

and there. she's probably the star that night. =)
hello jing, there's a thousand and one reasons why you are my bestest and nicest friend. thanks for everything. i really appreciate all the time spent. if there's ever anything or any problems you can always approach me. no matter where or when. i'll be there. =)

and thats a happy 19th birthday to myself. =)

=))))

2007-04-04T13:59:00.000+08:00

this is ronald's siao eh.

april fools day

2007-04-01T16:18:00.000+08:00

this is the day probably i'l never forget. the trick you played 2 years ago. that made me realised how much i loved you.

i miss those aimless outings.

i miss the late nights doing nothing.

i miss those long bus trips.

i miss the 3.30 cab fares.

i miss those times at the esplanade library "trying" to study.

i know i'll never get those times back again. my fault. because i loved you.

you'll have to understand that i'll never get bored. never ever. when theres you around.

....

2007-03-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

why isit that i'll never get back the same amount of love, care and concern i give to someone. i'm not asking for more. but not even a sign of affection much less companionship. not even once. pathetic me. =(

the trip, late nights on the roads and a personal note.

2007-03-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!!. finally finally. i got some of the pics ready. been too busy lately to blog and stuff. but what the heck. here it is. oh yar. just to get people updated. i've been to genting and back. and many many cool events took place. after i got back and yup.

i know its super long overdue. but. =)

the colour of the hotel's wierd. thats the view from some place.

did i mention the food over there is like super expensive.

i had this for breakfast everymorning. oh yar. i puked on one occasion. =(

the main attraction of the place is still the theme park. going to genting and not visit the them park is dope.

heres my ticket. =))

i had no choice but tuh sit on the roller coaster. it was well. fun.

the view from the ferris wheel.

and yup. the crew who went with me. thanks. =)

you know the nicest thing that can greet you when u wake up realising that u have to go downstairs to buy a toothbrush?

its this.

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recently, i have a friend. who is of great 'use' to me. haha. thats a joke. well. alvin got his liscense. so it means super late outings at nights without having to cab home. this has caused me to lose some sleep. and of course gain weight. nights and nights of supper. holland v's mee goreng. and yea. the secret trip to somewhere. =)

the usual bunch of suckers. they suck really. rating IQ and stuffs.

and yup. the main attraction in my phone. cool. she's like the living street directory.

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here's some crap section. this is the part where i emo, say happy things and yar shit in my pants.

1st up. I'M NO LONGER YEAR 1!!!!!!!! like finally after 2 years. i really really appreciate how everyone around me has helped me. really. =)

my gpa dropped by 0.1 this sem though. oh well. the night i got my results i nearly peed in my pants. i got someone to see the results for me anyways. the 1st thing i asked her was. "got f anot.?" sounds wierd. anyway it means if i have to repeat any modules anot. i passed all btw.

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"you cant make someone love you. you can only be someone what can be loved."

thoughts

2007-03-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

you set me thinking last night.

i dont want to lose friend. =(

pictures up soon. =)

girls.

2007-03-12T13:21:00.000+08:00

why cant we just fuck em and go?

oh ya. i'll be posting my genting trip pics soon. =)

=P

2007-02-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

you are probably the most interesting girl i ever met. =)

dooms-town.

2007-02-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

seriously my life is screwed man. call me blessed that i have some nice friends that will always be there. my classmates helped me alot as well. sweet.

the past 2 common tests days were probably the worse in my life. so stressed! yup. and what could be worse? my ipod earphones broke down and that left me nothing for me to study properly. like wth? but at the end of it all. theres a nice fun outing with my bestie that probably helped calm my nerves down.

i was thinking.. its just 2 common test papers and i nearly went mad. WHAT ABOUT THE EXAMS IN 2 WEEKS???!!!!
i'm so screwed. oh well.

ps: (to the girl who ran a million miles in my mind) you weren't there when i needed you most. in fact you werent anywhere at anytime. i'm trying to avoid feeling the after effects of your indifference now. yup. byee.

agenda agenda..

2007-02-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

i'm simply too lazy to blog these days. but generally it was fun this few days. i dont have that sad feeling. its good. i'm happy.

here's some major stuff coming up the next few weeks.

valentine's day is like soon? oh ya. i dont have a date. maybe i'll just lie on my bed and sleep on february 14th. oh well.

EXAMS. oh gawd. why do they even create such things to make me mad. i'm in a really bad position this sem. my academic life is like hanging by a thread? i need to get some stuff right man. like my life timetable? fit the study slots in dude.

and yea. had some talking session about life with my friend. and i do have some serious issues man. one of the main ones is BEING SERIOUS? yup. i need to stop playing sometimes. if not i'll always lose out man. i'll start by getting my emotional life back on track. like maybe, focus on one cutie at a time and really invest in it by putting my heart and soul. i'll try. =)

sweet.=)

wake me up when it ends.

2007-01-27T00:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i was a kid. because. skinned knees heals faster then broken hearts.

copied from somewhere. but i find it meaningful.

ponders

2007-01-16T01:16:00.000+08:00

i was sitting in the bus today. plugging into my mp3. and something. like a flash across my mind.

" and the reason is you"

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!!

2007-01-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

okok i know this came a little too late. i intend to do something like asking everyone for their best pics and post it up here. but it didnt turn out well. anyway. this will be a pictureless post. As always the 1st post of the year i will start with the ....

new year resolutions.

this year's will be a little similar to last year. because. I HAVENT MET MY RESOLUTIONS LAST YEAR =(

- get my driving license by the end of the year.

- get better grades.
(btw i'm struggling this sem. i'm dead man.)

- expand my social circle?
( i realise i have a puny social circle. sometimes i'll rot at home having no one to go out with. i'm too anti social maybe )

- find someone who'll hold my hand and go into the sea and not let go even if the waves were pushing her bikini away?
( okok. that was lame. i meant getting a girlfriend. Asley's new year greeting was " eh why until now 2007 still no girlfriend. and some settling down and stuff". forgot most of it. but. i'll try to stop playing. but somethings cannot be rushed. wait wait wait.)

- get more money?
(it happens every year. i'm always broke.)

- finally. i'll try to lose my weight and not be as successful as ronald. its bad.

done with the resolutions.

lastly. i want to say a big thanks you to everyone who has made my year in 2006.

those cunts- ronlek,sijia,alvin,yanting.

teresa

sianjing

weiting

asley,his girlfriend (she gave me a discount when i bought ice cream haha)

jacko, louis, bernard

ulric ,suqian,jonathan,clement

the coolest nurses on earth- pam,dee,rum,ange,jas,fiona

othercoolfriendsimadeinnursing- jolin,marie, and manymany others i cant recall suddenly.=)

the nicest classmatesbuddies- vincent,lynn,zhiwei,weixiong,ruisheng,henry,edmund,dom,lam,jayme,qianhui

my family of course.

those bowenians , yearlychaletbuddies.- junwen, weiqiang, peifang, daniel,

thosepeoplei'vebeenseeingsolittlein2006.- vivien,trudy,liqin,cindy,ALL 4E7 CLASSMATES, (oh ya) Parrypeople,

okok. i know there alot alot of people that i left out. erm. if anyone happens to see this. you all are included too ok. =)

ps: i know this is lame. but i dont know what to blog. haha. happy new year everyone.

christmas and the new year. my adventures.

2006-12-31T02:00:00.000+08:00

hello people. its always been so so so long that i blog once. anyway. its the christmas season although this post a little bit late. nevertheless. i would still show you some stuff. i've like loads of fun fun fun the christmas. its days of spending money and craps with loads of people. pictures upp.

lets start with the night at ron's house. for dinner and sleepover.

its the food i went for actually. its ubber nice man. yeap fattening too. gawd.

oh ya. they made me wash the dishes. those girls they dont even know how to operate a private dustbin. they only use those communal ones. so dumbb.

and lappy sessions. i realise it happens no matter where we go. lol.

after all the food. they decided its time for some exercise. so its twister time!! oh yar you can take a look at the pics on ron's or sijia's blog. links at the side. lazy to put up those obscene stuff. i hate sijia btw.

this is totally up to your imagination. =)

next next next was the steamboat at my house. it kinda turned out into some grills party. anyway. the food was fairly nice. at ronald's expense. cool. cant find pictures of the food. but...

kinda took this from jing's blog. its like nice. i like my room. so nice.

oh yea. ice cream. mmmm.

and i got this from jing. its still alive in my balcony. cutee.

now its time for christmas eve. spent with the world's most nicest suckers. namely ron, sijiasougly, yanting , alvin, junwen and jing. it was bliss. as in the restaurant at punggol park. oh well its spells another round of food. gawwdd.

this is what jing ordered. nicee. probably one of the best seafood pasta i've eaten.

ok. nothing to say for this pic except that i dont know what.

oh oh oh. my float. nice.

ok. next up christmas day.

its a trip down to angela's house for AGAIN another round of good food. and i really mean good. as in superb. so nice. yumm. too bad DEE wasnt there. sucha cunt. yes girl i havent seen u for so long. slut.

27/12/06
it was down to Dom's house with my current nice poly mates. for steamboat. FOOD AGAIN. but it was damn nice.

and and and....

the rest of the days was mostly spent with my bestest friend.

she's like the only person who has time 99% of the time i calls her. so cute.

oh yea. i shouldnt forget about this two. i call them. the PORNSISTERS. nice right.

heres a treat for everyone. you all are lucky. =P

to sum it all up. i have to thank everyone for making my christmas so special. especially those cunts and my bestest friend. =)

ps. sijia, ronlek, alvin , jing and all the living souls who see this. please send me your best photo's for my new year's post. =)

hello hello

2006-12-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

oh oh oh. its been like 2 weeks since i last blogged? today's post is special. its my 100th post for this blog and i'm typing it in my new lappy. the past few weeks is like fun? its just that hell starts next week. with the common test. and again. as ever. i'm so gonna die.

first up.

meetups with secondary school friends. cool people. =)

thats me. i had a hard time finishing that bottle. i nearly died.

oh yar i gained lots of weight. shit. thanks to this.

i'll have to run now. shed some kilos and shit more.

and friday outings with sijia ronald alvin and yanting has caused me to gain some weight too. and of course lots of laughters. especially, having no butterscotch ice cream to eat. and having to make sure we dont touch someone's pineapples. AND never accept any food sijia gives you. you'll have to pay for it. hahaha.

ok its off to studying now. wish me luck for my week of hell.

so long.

2006-11-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

its been long long since i last posted things here. schools still the same. boring as usual. and.. i'm broke. as usual. i think i should get a haircut. oh well.

took some photos as well. from the motorshow, and more importantly some funny people.

this 2 people. they are interesting. didnt manage to take pics of the others. i purposely chose this 1 though. pam looks ugly in it. quite rare.

this is my favourite car at the motorshow. it'll probably take me a 1 year to earn that amount. (dream).

i was pointing my middle toe.

and.. they are weird people.

oh well. heres me and my finger.

oh yea. recently i found out something about myself. i cant talk to nice girls. i'm shy.

school sucks.

2006-11-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

according to dictionary.com.

the definiton of school is....

school1 /skul/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[skool] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
an institution where instruction is given, esp. to persons under college age: The children are at school.
2.
an institution for instruction in a particular skill or field.
3.
a college or university.
4.
a regular course of meetings of a teacher or teachers and students for instruction; program of instruction: summer school.
5.
a session of such a course: no school today; to be kept after school.
6.
the activity or process of learning under instruction, esp. at a school for the young: As a child, I never liked school.
7.
one's formal education: They plan to be married when he finishes school.
8.
a building housing a school.
9.
the body of students, or students and teachers, belonging to an educational institution: The entire school rose when the principal entered the auditorium.
10.
a building, room, etc., in a university, set apart for the use of one of the faculties or for some particular purpose: the school of agriculture.
11.
a particular faculty or department of a university having the right to recommend candidates for degrees, and usually beginning its program of instruction after the student has completed general education: medical school.
12.
any place, situation, etc., tending to teach anything.
13.
the body of pupils or followers of a master, system, method, etc.: the Platonic school of philosophy.
14.
Art.
a.
a group of artists, as painters, writers, or musicians, whose works reflect a common conceptual, regional, or personal influence: the modern school; the Florentine school.
b.
the art and artists of a geographical location considered independently of stylistic similarity: the French school.
15.
any group of persons having common attitudes or beliefs.
16.
Military, Navy. parts of close-order drill applying to the individual (school of the soldier), the squad (school of the squad), or the like.
17.
Australian and New Zealand Informal. a group of people gathered together, esp. for gambling or drinking.
18.
schools, Archaic. the faculties of a university.
19.
Obsolete. the schoolmen in a medieval university. –adjective
20.
of or connected with a school or schools.
21.
Obsolete. of the schoolmen. –verb (used with object)
22.
to educate in or as if in a school; teach; train.
23.
Archaic. to reprimand.

well. to me.. the definition for school is..

1)boring place to be in.
2)comparable to hell.
3) cool friends in it.
4) good place to sleep.

maybe its happens only in my school. but... i think TP is a nice school. because she's there. =)

=)()()()

2006-10-29T11:23:00.000+08:00

oh yea. the 25th was the 1 year anniversary of this blog. cool. so fast.

and. yesterday i had a feeling i havent felt for a long long time butterflies in stomach kind. cool. thanks. for letting me meet you.

>.<

2006-10-22T19:45:00.000+08:00

i've got cool friends. i love them all.

forget!! God damnit.

2006-10-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

i just cant let go....

sometimes i walk the streets aimlessly...

wishing i would bump into you....

sometimes when i cross the bridge....

i wish that i would see you at the other end...

i would stupidly work at nonsense places...

keeping my fingers crossed so that i can suddenly see you walking pass...

in the past when you appear in front of the counter i was working...

the sun suddenly shone and my day was made...

i wish...

i wasnt an option..

the stickman

2006-10-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

i'll live like that stickman from now onwards.=)

drowns.

2006-10-14T15:41:00.000+08:00

drinking is not good. please dont learn to drink.

heres the past 2 days.

day 1. lesser pics though. 1 only in fact.

day 2. i can really shit well after that.

popping was fun too.

ergh...

you know what i like about pubs?

the snacks.

i was bored and still sober last nite. so i did this

okok . i have to shit already. byee. oh yar. drinking is bad. dont learn people.

untitled

2006-10-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

there was this strange feeling when i stepped into my house after work today. i read the most ridiculous stack of notes i ever seen. it was also the saddest. i could see that he's sad. i can feel it.

thoughts

2006-10-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered who will be there when u call in the middle of the night? will that person be there when you needed someone at any time? is that person the one you really want?

another birthday?

2006-10-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

oh well. its was junwen's birthday on the 4th of oct. and we went down to chomps. it was quite fun considering that alot of of people did not turn up. =(

i love photo blogging these days. so yar here are some photos.

chomps was just to make us full though. in preparation for this...
down to time in a bottle at serangoon gardens.

after some games and stuffs. its down to this.

they ended up like this. in the end.

OH YAR!!! and this you can ask sijia why i did that. =)

happy birthday Sijia.

2006-10-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday was sijia birthday. and it was another day of fun, laughter and all the craps. we got to eat without paying also. yay. haha. thanks sijia. i will not use THOUGH in this post.

photos, photos, photos.

i thought this was super cheena and secondary school. but we did it for fun anyway.

and and and this function which i found out on my phone.

ronalds named this surrender in his blog. but i would say it sure has 1 huge capacity aite?

reflection!!! there was more though. but photobucket's too lag. so i decided to put one only the rest can be found on ronald's blog.

i love myself.

seriously. i wonder why they arent married yet. maybe they are just waiting for me to save up for a bigger angpow.

oh yar. he nearly spoiled my jacket

she says she's a moron. here's the birthday girl though. <= sijia you are lucky ok. i used THOUGH for your photo.

and a new campiagn

finally. my recent craze.

it was fun. the past few days. having to wake up at 6 am. and stuffs. oh ya. sorry Dee i couldnt join you all yesterday =) next time go chiong ok?.

chalet.

2006-10-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

i know this is long overdue.... but i only had the mood to post it only today. although i uploaded the photos days ago. haha. anyway. something to summarise it all. IT WAS DAMN FUN!!. i took some photos with my phone as well. kinda cool.

lets get the ball rolling.

some random shots of the chalet.....

firstly... at some point of time the chalet became a lanshop. quite cool huh.

sijia and junwen did this. quite nice. it'll probably be my desktop wallpaper for the next few months.=))

and... most importantly the bbq. the food was nice overall... =))

oh yar.. just two hours after we checked in.. i found the chips gone.. but i found it awhile later. ask her.

okok. time for some mixed together random shots..

the computers brought some distractions but fun also=)) cute aint she.=)

and a certain highlight was the pets.. i swear it brought us some laughter and amusement

and nites without these people wouldnt be fun at all. i nearly puked water and my hand swelled badly =(. haha

the bbq...

i swear this two things really dont go well together. =)

lastly.....

in all. i had uber loads of fun. and yea. i love my friends. thanks everyone who came and made it fun. alright. i'll go and bath and back later to post pics of kohsijia's birthday. =))

2006-10-01T02:22:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be another emo post. sorry.

i wanted to post pics on the chalet. but just didnt have the mood.

i maybe a little too sensitive. but i think i just lost the game. the game that i have been playing since i realised what that weird feeling was. and ever since i realised what was i doing those things for. i have lost this game a long time ago though. its just that i wouldnt admit defeat. and now the truth hurts.

i dont want to be alone anymore.

=(

2006-09-26T01:47:00.000+08:00

i guess i wasnt that much into you. all the things you said. just didnt get into me.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-20T13:37:00.000+08:00

i have so much people to thank for being happy today. all my friends who have encouraged me. my family. and my classmates who relentlessly revised with me till the wee hours at night. thank GOD too. thanks. i thought it'll turn out like shit. but..

=)))

photoblog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i last photoblog. so yea i decided to dig some photos out. *may contain explicit content.

the one on the extreme right is the newest member. i have no money now. i hate myself.

i think i look damn gay with that green tshirt. ergh.

how i wish i can pass these modules and not ever see it again.

oh yea. i caught them in the act the other day while walking along the carpark. IN PUBLIC!. omg. when will they ever learn.

and this mosquito bite. got it when i was with ron and sijia in sengkang. it freaking made my hand look bent. i wonder why i'm always the target for mosquitoes. i got 1 near my eye when i was studying. also in sengkang. i hate sengkang.

my cupboard. i couldnt find any pictures. so yeah.

i think i'm the only nyp student with 3 lanyards. *(one of it is not mine.=))

ok. done with the photoblogging. the hols is soo boring no work. nothing to do except maybe watch all the movies that cathay has to offer. i'm broke too. anyone interested in giving me a loan? like for $123456789.

=))))))))))

2006-09-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

as she pulled my hand yesterday. something in my mind told me " bye ice queen, hello blazing hot chilli padi". i smiled. =)

one-itis

2006-09-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

somehow. i dont know why. it pains me to see you like that. i cant carry on playing. i shall have eyes for you and only you. no matter how much i know that it will be futile in the end. i should work hard for what i want. no matter how hard it is i'm going to melt the heart of the ice queen.

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2006-08-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

exams are over. AND i'm so dead.

2006-08-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

fives

2006-08-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

ok. i stole this again. from sijia's blog quite interesting

Five Songs Which You Know All The Lyrics Right Off Your Head Now:

1) the
2) song
3) of
4) my
5) life. thats lame. ok.

Five Things You Would Do If You Were A Millionaire:

1) get myself a cup of noodles at 7-11.
2) buy myself a diploma.
3) buy 1234567890 cars?
4) exchange 1/1000000 of the money for a sticker.
5) bring her to my house downstair kopitiam zhi char.

Five Bad Habits:

1) dig my nose. wait ar. i left some of the residue on my fingers
2) bite my nails. i lazy to use the nailclipper.lame.
3) sleep late at night.
4) bath at like 3am every morning?
5) i dont shave. as in facial hair. tsk tsk.

Five Things You Like Doing:

1) sleeping?
2) shitting.
3) girls.
4) sticking out my tongue.
5) stoning

Five Things You Will Never Wear, Buy Or Get New Again:

1) panties.
2) gillete shavers.
3) girlfriend.
4) the soft toy ducky.
5) new bedsheets.

Five Favourite Toys or Things:

1) the soft toy ducky.
2) the whip.
3) candle holder.
4) ropes.
5) the girl that broke my heart. lame? ( i couldnt think of anything to put in)

Five People You Choose To Do This:

do what? ohh. that ar.

1) !@#%@!%$!%
2) #@!%$#%$!%
3) #@!%$#^%$
4) mailto:$%5E#@^%$^@
5) fuck you.

happy?

2006-08-20T02:52:00.000+08:00

i have nobody to love and miss. yay. =))

have a beer.

2006-08-13T01:22:00.000+08:00

after a few weeks of having the stupid sinking feelin. I FINALLY SMILED.

and girl

you are the one who fixed that smile up =)).

missing miss

2006-07-31T19:52:00.000+08:00

i miss those times when you would say you are bored.
i miss those times when you would not mind spending hours with me.
i miss those times when long phone calls at nights kept me busy.
i miss those time which i get to see you every night.
i miss you. come back?

2006-07-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

i stole this from ron's blog. quite interesting.

8 ways to comment about ugly girlfriends.

1. Your girlfriend is so ugly that when she smile to the ugliest person on earth, he/she will probably scold her "chao chee bye".

2. Your girlfriend is so ugly that when you sends her to "Extreme Makeover" and they will tell you that they dont need an actress for "Mission Impossible 4" yet.

3. Your girlfriend is so ugly that it's public disgrace for her to walk in the street without a paperbag.

4. Your girlfriend is so ugly that the Oxford Dictionary has recognized this phrase "as ugly as _____ (insert her name)".

5. Your girlfriend is so ugly that if you says she is ugly, she will probably take it as a compliment, and smile. And that's when u scolds her "chao chee bye" too.

6. Your girlfriend is so ugly that she is a walking taboo.

7. Your girlfriend is so ugly that the only way to make her look better is to remove her head. And is that doesnt work, i think she is hopeless.

8. Your girlfriend is not ugly, she is just fucking hideous.

spite

2006-07-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

you know. today, wherever i go i see people dressed in couple tees and doing all those stuffs. i think they are all out to spite me. i hate everyone of them. i think i screwed my presentation today. didnt have the mood to write my script last night. so. yea.

the sad truth.

2006-07-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

"hey!! arent you exhausted. you've been running through my mind . like every second???!!!"

i know i know. the day will come when you get the right one. i'm trying to make u stop running past my mind so that when the day comes it wont hurt so much.=))

lamee.

2006-07-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

i have decided to blog today. because.... i havent blogged for a few days. had the sudden feeling to crapp on my blog. because... i felt the reality hitting me on my face suddenly. oh well. thats sad. the past few days were full of fun and boreness and sad as well. anyway. the exams are coming soon.

good news: i only have 3 modules for my exams.
bad news: those 3 modules are the ones that i failed previously and are my worse and weakest modules.

thats ironical isnt it. dumbb.

actually i wanted to tell a story today.but i'm too tired.but somethings are best kept to myself. in the confidential dept of my brain.

I told myself. No matter what. i cant lose you. i failed.